It arrived yesterday. So Ken and I took a break from our work day to apply the new window film to our front door.
I LOVE it!!
If you're so inclined, there are so many companies that do this, and a plethora of designs to choose from. We scrolled through them all, for a few weeks actually, until we found this one, and I didn't want to look any further. I knew this belonged on our door.
Honestly, this is so easy. Basically it's giant sticker that needs soapy water to stay fixed to the window. Comes with a scraping tool, and you move from the inside out. The measurements were perfect, so no trimming required. And just like that, we now have a tad more privacy than we did before.
This was the door before.
And even though we might call this our 'front' or main door, this is actually looking out the side of our home into the backyard. Remember, we share the property, not just with our son, but with a lovely young couple who are tenants of the basement apartment in the main house. Our own little community, if you will.
So far, while it's been winter, there hasn't been too much activity outside. But that red umbrella you see marks a little sitting area in the summer. And, if you are standing at our door, and you turn completely around....
...you'll be looking straight into the bathroom. So before the window treatment, you wouldn't want to just waltz in to use the facilities without making sure you closed the door, even if you were home all by yourself. Just in case. Might still be what you'd want to do, but at least now there's a little something more between you in a vulnerable moment, and the whole wide world.
To be clear, we are finding the whole situation here to be much more than we expected it would be. The house feels bigger than I thought it would. The shared space of the driveway and the pathways to our porch are proving to be ample. And we all have a similar sense of what healthy boundaries look like. Even without the window screen on the door, we have felt respected back here. And it's quiet!
But putting up the extra bit of privacy yesterday put me in mind of the importance of both exercising healthy boundaries, and living a life of authentic transparency. And how sometimes it's hard to find that balance.
I don't know who first said it (and if someone can find it and let me know, I'd appreciate it), but a guideline I've tried to live by in terms of being open and honest is 'the appropriate information with the appropriate people at the appropriate point of the relationship.' In the past, I've trusted too easily, given everyone the benefit of the doubt, and lived to regret entrusting some with the deeper confessions of my soul. If later, something you shared in confidence is used against you to benefit the person you shared it with, in any form of that, you shared it with the wrong person. It's not always easy to know. But I've learned from that. I'm more careful now.
The other swing of this, however, isn't okay. We don't grow, we don't make rich deep connections with other human souls, and we miss our own blind spots if we are so guarded no one can ever see what's happening behind the doors of our psyche. In certain contexts and within some relationships, withholding of information, thoughts or feelings can move into the more shady territory of keeping unhealthy secrets. Some of them are outright dangerous. Again, I can't remember who said this, but 'we're only as sick as our secrets' rings true.
Christian psychologist and author Larry Crabb (a source I can actually cite here!) has recommended we all have 'someone with whom we have no secrets.' He said this in the context of keeping spiritual leaders on track, which is especially needful in these days of scandal within the Christian church. But I feel it should be true for anyone who has anything at all at stake, for the sake anyone who might be harmed in our wake, should we be tempted to take those first steps down a slippery slope of self-deception, and the betrayal of what's been entrusted to us.

Okay. In the spirit of full disclosure here, truth is I have been spinning my wheels a bit this morning. A productive but interruptive phone call, some necessary but frustrating conversation about money and numbers, and communications about changes in plans for the afternoon intruded on my intentions for productivity. All it took, then, was walking past the door, and again admiring this latest finishing touch on our home, and I succumbed to blog-writing.
Now, I should get back to some of the timely work I need to get done before the morning is gone.
Plans are coming into focus for a time when we can invite folks over for the 'Two Minute Tour.'
Stay tuned.