An Extraordinary Morning

My Beloveds at Highview,

Thank you for the way our stunning Father was glorified today.
An extraordinary God, who loves to do extraordinary things with ordinary people.
Reason to celebrate.
Reason to reflect.
So many tears.
So much joy.

I am undone by your gift to me.
What you have spoken, sung, given today, is quite certainly beyond priceless and beyond what I know I deserve.

And you, the collective you, all of you and each of you at the same time,
Thank you.


For being a safe place for me to be real, and to make mistakes.

For pushing past conservative conventions and standing behind me as a woman pastor.

For all those times you let me go away for a month to the cottage.  I so needed that!

For allowing me to let Thailand become part of my heart, and releasing me to that ministry now.

For sharing some of your most awful, wonderful, intimate moments of life and death and hilarity and sorrow.

For honouring me with your confessions.

For praying for me.

For laughing with me.

For growing with me, and more often than not, in spite of me.

For being the now-famous grace-filled place that embraced my family during our darkest hours.

For pushing back on sermons or ideas with love and respect, helping to shape my thinking and giving us space to grow together.

For not settling for status quo when it comes to doing the un-glamorous work of the gospel.

For opening your arms to one another, even in the midst of significant diversities.

For opening your arms to strangers, even in the midst of significant diversities.

For trusting your leaders and being a people your leaders trust, because of course it goes both ways.

For working hard and playing hard and worshiping with everything you've got.

For trying new things all the time.


For being just the right size for the kind of loving God has for us to do.

For teaching me so much about what Jesus looks like.

For making the most important thing the most important thing and not worrying so much about the rest, except when it has to do with the most important thing.

For taking risks, and being prudent, and pushing the envelop and seeking discernment.

For taking care of each other spontaneously, and consistently.

For being uniquely wonderful in so many ways.

For being a community that is truly wretched to be away from for six months.

For trusting me to come back and hang out with you all again.

 For allowing God to write a truly beautiful story among you,
a story that has exciting new chapters yet to unroll. 

My Beloveds, 

Please know this....

Being your Pastor and being given the honour

 of serving in this way alongside each and every one of you 

has been, without question, one of the most

 astonishing

delights 

of 

my

 life. 

I cannot thank you enough.

In Celebration of Hearts That Won't Let Go

Something uniquely spectacular is in the works for Saturday, May 26.

I'm talking about a wedding.  Weddings by definition are spectacular events all unto their own.  And this one, just because of the nature of the covenant that these two people are making  with one another, is totally beautiful and true and exciting in its own merit.

But there's an element to this wedding that is a unique celebration of lasting community and committed friendships.

The two people getting married - the Bride, Charlotte Inthof, and the Groom, Bruce Barrett - are two human beings for whom I had the high honour of being present when they drew their first breath.  For both Charlotte and Bruce, I acted as labour coach to assist their mothers, both of whom are dear friends who spectacularly delivered them into the world.


And on Saturday, May 26, I will again have a high honour, this time of officiating their union.

How cool is this?

Come on, how often does this happen?  That a pastor is officiating the wedding of two people whose births she attended? (If anyone knows of anyone else with this claim, I would love to be put in touch.  We can start a support group or something! Go on speaking tours.  Like that.)

But here's the thing.  This didn't happen by accident.  This represents life-long relationships.  Obviously.  And relationships of any length, let's face it, take brutal amounts of work.  They just do.  Marriages, colleagues, business partnerships, service teams, sports teams, communities of faith, friendships, co-anythings.  Most of the time, at varying levels, relationships that matter require much from us. 

Even aside from this upcoming wedding, I've been doing a lot of reflecting on my relationships lately.  My relational world is about to dramatically change, at least for a while. I'm about to pull away for a time from a whole tribe of people with whom my soul is truly at home.  It's a necessary absence as part of the transition at Highview; a time to allow Erin the space to establish her own leadership voice as Senior Pastor.  A time for the Leadership Team to establish this new chapter.

I'm totally on board with this.  And I'm also sad.  And I'm also realizing that the anticipated absence is sharpening my awareness of the tenure of my relationships, and some of the things I believe make for long-time commitments across the relational horizon.  Being with the same community of faith for so many years, there are lots of long time relationships.  And this summer Ken and I will celebrate 40 years of marriage ourselves.

Midst the complexity of every human connection, if I had to distill it down to what matters to me, what makes a relationship last, I would hang a lot on three things.

1.   Open Listening

What if everyone we meet has something to teach us?  What if every conversation was an opportunity to better understand rather than be understood?  And what if, over time, that sincere posture of being completely open to listen, to learn, provided a way to deeply connect?    Think of the conflicts that could be avoided or, better yet, collaboratively resolved into a brilliant 'third-way'!  And how profound the freedom and expansion of a safe place to become, in the presence of an open listener who truly wants to know what it is you have to say.

2.  Tenacious Forgiveness

Here's an ironic fact of life.  Human beings can do huge damage to the very people they love the most.  We can.  And in our relationships we have the capacity for catastrophic betrayal, crushing indifference, and cruel, cruel vocabulary.  Or course, there's also the 'smaller' but accumulative relational infractions of annoying habits, simple carelessness and colliding personality quirks.  Any one of these, big or small, has been the cause of wretched endings, sometimes, quite understandably so.  But no long time relationship has arrived there without a certain tenacity of forgiveness that just won't let go.  Forgiveness isn't about allowing ourselves to be abused, of course.  But it is the base line fabric of any relationship that's gone the distance.

3.  Lifted Perspective

Our relationships are about way more than the people immediately involved.  In a marriage, it's our family and friends.  In a business partnership, it's our colleagues or employees.  In a church, it's our family of faith.  And on it goes.  When a relationship ends badly, others are affected somehow.  This is because no relationship exists within a vacuum.   And in a Christian world-view, our relationships don't even belong to us.  They belong to the One we've committed our lives to, and He has something in mind to accomplish through the connections He orchestrates into our lives.  So when the temptation rages to walk out, a lifted perspective considers how this will pan out in a bigger picture.  Who suffers?  Who else gets damaged?    This, by the way, is the power of speaking vows, wedding or otherwise, to a larger group of people.  It lifts our perspective up and over ourselves into a wider world of relational webs, strengthening the connection and increasing the potential longevity of the union. 

A comment on the obvious is needed here.  Throughout my lifetime (turning 61 in a few weeks), I have also had the painful experience of relationships that went sour and some that even became dangerous.   I will likely always feel this sorrow, this confusion, in their unhappy endings.  Without question, I had something to do with it.  Without question, so did they.   For a while, I spent a great among of emotional energy trying to figure it all out, pursing and trying to fix things until it was apparent that was only doing more damage or becoming more dangerous.  

However, more recently, and with the help of spiritual companions and faithful friends, I am more inclined to simply and gratefully receive the good, good gift of those who have patiently hung in there with me, in spite of me.   Those who have openly listened to my heart, have forgiven the sins I've committed against them, and have seen the bigger picture of our relationship as a binding thing.  In their love I have been able to experience the fullness of my life in ways that continue to startle me.

So, on Saturday, May 26 I get to be in that beautiful space with a whole lot of stellar people who love well.

What an amazing way for Bruce and Charlotte to begin their lives together. 

All the Moms

Here's to the Moms in red dresses
with a knowing that presses
this side of it,
lifting our praises for her graces
and all the sleepless nights
we stumble through because
she did the same for us.

We miss you

We'd kiss you if we could

Here's to the Moms now gone.
They shone
a greying glory
and glee in waiting for Glory
just to look on His face
in that place
because of Grace.

Here's to the Moms all empty
bellies and arms
no baby but maybe but no
still sad and mad sometimes
it's bad sometimes
on Not-Mother's Day.

Here's to the Moms courageous
outrageous in daring to love the fruit of another's womb
making room
for the blooming of hope
even in the agonies of uncertainty
and sudden goodbyes
where she cries
and cries
and still loves bravely.

Here's to the Moms who are now our daughters
who, with wonder, survived our blunders
and mother better these latter joys
of womb begetting womb,
girls and boys

 
to begin again the red dresses.

To Be Continued - Sermon for Highview Community Church Acts Series

The following is a sermon prepared for Highview to complete our 'Called To Be Church' series in Acts.  The April ice storm disrupted a few things, so just to finish things off, Erin - who created the series - has asked me to publish this so we can continue to live into our calling to be the Church of Jesus together.

It's a long read, so if you're game, grab cup of coffee or tea, and your Bible, and hunker down.

Best if Acts 21 to 28 are read first.  Feel free to keep your Bible open while you make your way through what follows. 

Here it is.....Hope it inspires.

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To be continued.  

That’s basically what we get when we get to the end of the book of Acts.  That’s where Luke leaves us hanging.  Acts 28, the very last two verses go like this.

Acts 28:30-31

For two whole years Paul stayed there in his own rented house and welcomed all who came to see him.  Boldly and without hindrance he preached the kingdom of God and taught about the Lord Jesus Christ.

Love it.  Sounds strong.  I can imagine Paul as resident sage, folks coming to visit him to provide for his physical needs, but also to take in some of his great wisdom, his passion, his inspiration to live for Jesus.

Love it.  But....What happened next?

Whatever happened to Paul?   Luke leaves him in prison.  And nowhere else in the New Testament are we given an account of how Paul’s life ended.

Here is a significant, could be argued the main, contributor to what we now regard as our New Testament Scripture, someone Luke has followed closely, recounting so many details of his activities since chapter seven, and nowhere do we find out the end of his story.

If this was a movie, it would be one of those endings where the long lost daughter – maybe her name is Rey – finds her Dad - maybe his name is Luke - and you just know that there’s more to the story.  You just know that a sequel is coming.

That’s what the last few verse of Acts do to us.  It’s where we find Paul, more or less just hanging out... in prison.

And before we go too much further, it’s probably good if we know how he got there.  And for that, we’d have to press fast forward and zip through chapters 21 to 28 of Acts.

How Paul Got Put In Jail

Paul returns to Jerusalem after his last big missions trip.  This is more or less home base, so he’s likely thinking he’s there to give reports, get rested and, probably, strategize a little so he could decide where he was going next.  But that’s not how it goes. 

Some Jewish folks who have been following him around trying to stop his message catch up with him, make enough trouble in a public, riotous sort of way and Paul ends up being arrested.

This arrest unfolds step by step into a legal process that takes Paul to Rome,

because as a Roman citizen, he’s appeals to Caesar, his legal right, which we’ll come to in just a second. 

There are a few adventures along the way, not the least of which is being shipwrecked, being bit by a poisonous snake, and also being mistaken for a god

– again! 

And here we have him, now at the end of Acts, under house arrest, still preaching and writing and talking about Jesus to anyone who will listen.

And that’s where Luke leaves him.

Acts 28:30-31

For two whole years Paul stayed there in his own rented house and welcomed all who came to see him.  Boldly and without hindrance he preached the kingdom of God and taught about the Lord Jesus Christ.

That’s how Luke ends his story.  Paul, in what was clearly hostile circumstances, having been taken as a prisoner and just waiting to have his appeal given to Caesar.

It’s not how we might have written the end of the story.  Leaving our hero in chains, liberty restricted, just sitting there waiting.  Kind of anticlimactic.  Boring even.   A feature of the Bible, by the way, that makes it harder to believe these are made up stories.  Who would leave their hero just....waiting?

Except in this maybe less than satisfying ending, we have in Paul an example that I would argue, when it has been followed by followers of Jesus, has been exactly what has continued the restoration story God calls His Church to live out.

In Paul, here at the end of Acts, there is an example for every believer to follow if we want to be part of what continues the story of restoration, of shalom, of kingdom....even when, and perhaps especially when we are operating in a hostile environment.

As a Prisoner for Christ, Paul leaves us with some ‘ways of being’ that, to the degree we nurture and grow these in ourselves, we too can keep the story going, even when, and perhaps especially when it’s not easy to follow Jesus.

‘Ways of being’ to grow in.  And the first is

1. Courage for the Consequences

to have courage for the consequences of living boldly for Christ.

Let’s dabble in a bit of physics for a second.

There is a law of physics that says,

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

Newton’s 3^rd Law of Motion

This is Newton’s third law of motion.

Ever seen something called a Newton’s Cradle?  It’s a series of heavy metal balls hung in a row on wire.  When we lift the ball at one end, the energy travels through the balls in the middle to push out the ball at the other end in an arch equal to that of the ball that started the reaction.

Whatever is done at one end, is mimicked in response at the other. 

Same can be said for living boldly for Christ.

Here in these last chapters of Acts we see Paul repeatedly displaying a fierce courage to keep on living for and speaking for Christ, regardless of possible, and sometimes obvious, consequences.

In 21:26 there’s this statement that seems insignificant enough, but actually demonstrates a remarkable boldness and courage when we realize that Paul knew full well that there were Jews who were openly hostile towards him, always looking to harm him, to bring him down. 

Acts 21:26

The next day Paul took the men and purified himself along with them.  Then he went to the temple to give notice of the date when the days of  purification would end and the offering would be made for each of them.

Do you see that?  He still went to the Temple!  Like, where his were kinda, probably going to be.

Clearly, Paul does not hide.  And he never backs down from talking about Jesus, even in the midst of being beaten up.

In the process of being arrested in Jerusalem, Paul is literally mobbed and beaten.

Acts 21:31-32

While they were trying to kill him news reached the commander of the Roman troops that the whole city of Jerusalem was in an uproar.  He at once took some officers and soldiers and ran down to the crowd.  When the rioters saw the commander and his soldiers, they stopped beating Paul.

And then, the commander takes charge.  And Paul, who, think about it, is probably bleeding and maybe has split lip or an eye swelling shut, asks if he can say something. 

Acts 21:40

Having received the commander’s permission, Paul stood on the steps and motioned to the crowd.  When they were all silent, he said to them in Aramaic...

And then chapter 22 he goes on to give his sermon. 

But, think of it!  He’s being beaten by people who are angry about his message about Jesus.  And in the midst of it, as soon as the crowd gets a bit under control and he has the chance to say something, he’s talking about Jesus again!!  To people to who want to kill him for talking about Jesus!!

I don’t know.  Would we have faulted Paul if, when he got the people’s attention again, he might have said.  Look, I think this has all gone too far.  I don’t really like getting beat up, so can we just agree to all believe our own beliefs and just try to get along?  I’ll shut up about Jesus, if you just stop beating up on me.

Sounds reasonable to me.  But not to Paul.   Not when there was a compelling story of restoration that had to be continued.  Not when the gospel was such good news.  Not when there was so much at stake.

I like to imagine myself to be as courageous as Paul.   Do anything you like to me, I won’t stop talking about Jesus. 

But the truth is, over the course of my life, there have been times when I’ve held back from talking about Him just merely out of the fear of social rejection.  Not that there was a risk of anyone beating me up.  Just the fear that people wouldn’t like me.

Okay, the stakes can sometimes be higher.

In 2009 a Christian teacher, named Olive Jones was fired for offering to pray for a sick student.  This happened in the UK.  (cite source/link)

And while the media probably isn’t giving us the whole story, this sounds pretty much like something’s off here.  Really?  By offering to pray for?  In the article it states clearly that she just offered, the mom asked her not to, and that then she didn’t.  And then the mom lodged a complaint and within hours the teacher was fired.  And whatever the outcomes of this, I am left wondering, if this was me, and I got another job teaching somewhere, how would this affect my ability to declare myself a Christian, to speak about Jesus?

We have a story to continue. 

Respectfully, humbly, lovingly, of course.  But also with courage. 

And it might cost us something.  Do we have courage in the face of consequences?

Paul did.  And the story of Jesus continues to this day because of it.

To be continued.

“Ways of being” that, to the degree we nurture and grow Paul’s example in ourselves, we too can keep God’s story going, even when, and perhaps especially when it’s not easy to follow Jesus.

And the first is to have courage for the consequences of living boldly for Christ.

And the second is

2. Savvy on the Street

to properly use our street savvy. 

Street savvy.  Street smarts.  We know what this is, right?  That ability to be very aware of your surroundings, not just ‘on the streets’ but we expand this to mean just a knowledge of the environment, and your role, or even your rights within that environment.  Who’s in charge.  Who to talk to if you want things done.  Street smarts.  How things work.

Every one of us has some component of this in our lives.  An area where we just know things because of our life experience.

I have a Spiritual Care Provider hospital badge.  It identifies me as a pastor for any time I am visiting someone in Grand River Hospital.  Also allows me free parking which is really helpful, truly.  In crisis situations when I’ve been up there for long periods of time or when I have to go in two or three times a day sometimes, it can really add up, and so this is helpful.

What else is helpful is that once upon a time, a long time ago, I was an employee of Grand River Hospital.  And so even with the renovations that have happened several times over since then, I still basically sort of know the layout.

And that general sense of hospital street savvy, to call it that, has really helped in times when I have been visiting folks who are patients.   I just flash my badge and I can get in when it’s not visiting hours, get in to ICU, practically anywhere, actually.  With this badge, I am afforded a certain degree of respect and access I wouldn’t otherwise have.

And even when I’ve been caring for my parents, in different hospitals, transferring over some of those hospital street smarts has been helpful to use to help advocate for them.  Knowing who to ask for, knowing some of the lingo.  It all helps.

And that’s what I use my hospital savvy for.  To advocate for whoever needs the care.

In Acts 22, Paul’s got some pretty strong street smarts going on here.

And he doesn’t mind flashing his badge when he needs to.

Will invoke his rights as a Roman citizen when needed – Acts 22:25]

In chapter 22, verse 25, we see him take a bold step and invoke his rights as a Roman citizen.  Perfectly within his right to identify himself as citizen of Rome and expect a certain degree of treatment and process because of that.

Takes action against the plot against his life – 23:12-22

In chapter 23:12 -22, there’s an intriguing subplot to intercept the prisoner transfer of Paul to the Sanhedrin, and when Paul learns of the plan, he advocates on his own behalf, and thwarts it, using proper authorities and process.

Appeals to Caesar – 25:11

In chapter 25:11 we have his famous ‘appeal to Caesar’ which again falls into his rights as a Roman citizen, but it is really sort of the ultimate trump card he could pull as a Roman citizen. 

So Paul doesn’t hold back from using his knowledge of his legal rights, or inside information when he needs to.  He’s not a hapless victim.  He’s not stupid.

Sometimes people who are suffering for their faith in some way, suffering some consequences, are depicted as delusional or dangerously misguided, or just naive.  Religious fanatics who have lost grip with reality and are recklessly throwing away their lives for a fantasy.  Or simply just stupid.

And to be honest, there are times when we read the news and, from whatever facts

we can actually glean, it does seem that at times, there are folks who are suffering consequences that appear to be the result of behaviour that was unnecessary, or misguided, and now they are claiming religious persecution.

But this is not Paul.  

He’s smart.  He knows his stuff.  And uses his smarts, he leverages his rights, not for his own benefit, not just to make his own case and to be set free, but for the advancement of the gospel, the continuation of God’s story.

See, it may be that when he appealed to Caesar he actually lengthened his stay in prison.  That would be the opinion of King Agrippa after he heard Paul’s case, and invited the governor Festus to come hear Paul as well. 

Acts 26:32

Agrippa said to Festus, “This man could have been set free 

if he had not appealed to Caesar.”

And maybe Paul did it on purpose.  So he could get to tell Jesus’ story to Caesar.  I don’t know.

But he wasn’t manipulating his rights for his own benefit.  Whenever he used his street savvy it was to increase his ability to preach the gospel.  Not for his own freedom, but for the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Motives are a tricky thing.  But the challenge here for us, I think, is this.

When are we using our street smarts, or any advantage we might have, merely to impress, or manipulate a situation to our favour?  Instead of, using that same street savvy to further the restoration story of Jesus?

And how much energy do we put on making sure we use our own particular kind of street savvy, our area of expertise, to further our own agendas, manage our image, make us look good......compared to making sure Jesus’ story gets told, God’s plans and purposes unfold?  Advocating for others, for those with no voice, for those who need care and support?

And yes, that stings a little.  At least it does when I ask it of myself.

But in Paul’s life we have ‘Ways of being’ that,

to the degree we nurture and grow Paul’s example in ourselves, we too can keep God’s story going, even when, and perhaps especially when it’s not easy to follow Jesus.

And the first is to have courage for the consequences of living boldly for Christ.

And the second is to properly use whatever street savvy we’ve been given.

And the third is to

3. Transcend the Chains

Transcend the Chains.

And here’s what I mean by that.

In January 2016 I passed out in public and they called an ambulance and even though they kept me in emerg for the entire day without finding anything wrong with me, my driver’s license was taken from.  Until I could prove through a process of testing and consultation that I wasn’t going to randomly pass out again, I was not allowed to drive.

That took three months.

I basically had a hissy fit for three months. 

And the central point of my anger was how restricted I felt in the work I believe I am called to do.  How can I possibly do what God has called me to do, in all its transportational complexity without a driver’s license?  I did not accept this graciously at all.  I experienced a huge degree of stress over this, to the point where I developed a wretchedly distracting, prickly rash all over my back that felt like I was being attacked by a bazillion mosquitoes, all the time. 

So now, I was even angrier.  How am I supposed to go about my rather demanding life, concentrating on what I need to concentrate on, caring for people, smiling at people, when I am so itchy all the time, and I don’t have my driver’s license!!!!!!!!

Basically, I saw this series of events as a huge limitation to the work God has called me to do.

But Paul.  Oh, Paul. 

He’s in prison.  Talk about restrictions.  And he writes this.....

Philippians 1:12-14

Now I want you to know, brothers and sisters, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel.  As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ.  Because of my chains, most of the brothers in the Lord have been encouraged to speak the word of God more courageously and fearlessly.

I guess we can’t really say Paul chose the chains.  But he chose to accept them.  And he didn’t believe that whatever was restricting him was restricting the work of God.  In fact he did not see his chains as a hindrance but, in God’s hands, something that could keep the story moving forward. 

More than that.  He fully embraces this identity that he is a prisoner of Christ.

And he lets that bind him even closer to Jesus, and sees it as an enhancement to his ministry to the point that his “identity as a prisoner ends up serving both as an emblem of Christ’s humiliation upon the his life, and as a symbol of his apostolic authority.”  Hawthorne, 754.

Talk about reframing.  Talk about transcending the chains!

See I think we’re more likely to see our restrictions, whatever they are, as hindrances to our part in keeping the story going.  We lose our license, we are sidelined by illness, we have a huge reduction in salary for whatever reason, our life situation changes, even for good reasons like starting a family, or starting a new more demanding course of study.  And we’re more likely, I think, to assume that this reduces our chances to be part of God’s restoration story.

But I think our only restrictions are in our mind.  We can choose to keep watching for God’s restoration work in our own hearts and in the hearts of the people He puts right in front of us.  We can choose our own ‘chains’ and still be part of the keeping the story going.

Paul’s example is so inspiring to me.

He had courage for the consequences, savvy on the street, and he chose the chains.  And he didn’t let anything stop him from telling the story of God’s desperate desire to restore people to intimacy with Him.

So, what did happen to Paul?

An early church historian named Eusebius claimed that Paul was beheaded in one of the first waves of persecution from the Roman empire.  Details are scarce, but it fits historically.

Thing is, not Luke, nor any other Biblical author tells us for sure, and I think the thing is that Luke isn’t as interested in what happened to Paul as to what happened to the good news of Christ.  And what happened to the church.

And the amazing news is that the story did continue!

Here we are, you and I, more than 2000 years later and the story of the movement of Jesus Christ continues, the rescue and restoration mission of God continues.

It hasn’t been without its dark chapters, both from persecution, like I just mentioned, and when Christians have persecuted others, which is dismal to read about. 

The story hasn’t been without its distortions and corruption and times when we have behaved like anything but followers of Jesus. 

But the story continues.  Hope lives on.  And even though we, like Paul, now do indeed live in a culture that is increasingly hostile toward the Christian faith, we have the opportunity still to keep telling the story.

And I wonder, what story will they tell about us? 

The story has been told for over 2000 years.

And should Jesus decide not to return for a while, I wonder...

What story will be told about us?