I wrecked my phone. I'll start there.
Last Friday, a week ago now, I went over to finish up the task of loading bins from
a pile of construction junk beside the bunkie. It was hot. The sun was bright. No pockets.
I didn't want to leave my phone on the stairs where it would be
exposed, and also possibly easily knocked off onto the rocks below the
staircase. And, I didn't simply walk up the stairs and leave my phone inside
the bunkie, because I didn’t want to forget it when I was done.
So I tucked my phone into a place women often tuck things to keep them safe. I don’t mean to be indelicate, but sports
bras are particularly good for this sort of thing. Enough said. Moving right along to the story.
I worked hard. I'll remind you that it was hot. Let's just say my phone got a little (ahem) damp. Enough to mess
with the touch screen. Enough that, over the next five days, no amount of
drying-out tricks recommended online could remedy the problem. My phone was rendered useless in that I could
not even draw the pattern to unlock the screen. Nothing. It was declared a done deal. We’d have to see if we could get it repaired
next time we were in town.
Over the next several days, other than the normal frustrations of not having
your ‘device’ available (yes, I did notice how many times I reached for it that
first day), I wasn’t terribly inconvenienced other than not being able to respond
to texts. Basically everything I do on
my phone I also do on my computer, except phone calls and texts. Oh, and my camera. I really missed my camera.
And I felt kind of stupid.
What an expensive mistake. Here
at a time when Ken and I are practicing a new kind of frugality, I go and wreck
my phone. If it can’t be easily repaired,
then I’ll have to buy a new one. Phones
are not cheap. This is not money I
expected to spend right now. Ken was
practical and kind enough to point out that I hadn’t had a new phone is about
six years, so it was probably time for an upgrade anyways. But I still felt bad.
Wednesday was town day.
It was Ken’s idea to forget about going to a repair place. “Let’s just bite the bullet and get you a new
one.” He’d looked online, and if we checked
out the Mobile Shop in the Supercentre in Midland, we might get Optimum points
towards groceries. So, okay.
It’s hard to describe what happened when we got there. A cascade of good surprises tumbled out at us
almost like a “too good to be true” prank.
I won’t even try to include all the numbers, but the phone that most
closely replaced what I already had was on sale, and this was the last day, and
there was one left. Of course, this being a new model, everything on it was
more and faster and better, including the camera. The renegotiations on my account, including
the cost of the new phone, was a significant reduction in current monthly
payments. Yes, I said ‘reduction.’ And to top it all off, the points thing was
enough to include a good quality phone case, the charger block, plus $200 worth
for groceries.
What?!?!
Something that appeared at first to be an unexpected
hardship, had turned out instead to be an unexpected benefit.
We got back into the car and whooped it up for a bit. And stopped and thanked God for looking after
us.
It was such an encouragement right now to get this great
deal; to have this unfortunate ‘expense’ turn into a fortunate ‘gift.’ Felt like a confirmation that this direction we’re
going is the right one, and that, under God’s watchful eye, we’re going to be
okay.
So, thank you Lord, for Your tender care to my relatively small, but expensive, situation. Thank you for a lower monthly payment, a better phone, AND a better camera! Thank you for all those free groceries!
And then I couldn’t help but remember all the times in my
life when this very same thing has happened.
When circumstances that at first seemed difficult, unwanted, even devastating
and grief-ridden, have in hindsight ended up being gateways to blessings that I
would not have experienced otherwise.
All the times when God has turned tragedy into triumph. When what at first seemed bad has ended up
for my good. And not just for me, but
all the people who, by proxy and default, have been blessed in the wake of it.
I think the most classic story in the Bible about this is
Joseph being sold into Egypt, then ending up second in command to Pharoah. His own words express the acknowledgement of
God’s grander purposes in the writing of his story. In offering forgiveness to the brothers who
sold him as a slave to that caravan heading west, he says:
“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to
accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” Genesis 50:20.
It’s an epic story you can check out for yourselves in
Genesis chapters 37 to 50.
And Joseph nails it. Yes,
God turned the lowest point of his life into something that ended up saving
countless lives throughout a brutal famine.
I really doubt my new phone will save lives. But it’s been a good reminder. And a faith-booster, if you will. When I can see the hand of God helping to
write the story, I can be more patient and steady in the storm. And when it all resolves, I am full of praise
and gratitude.
And we could wrap this post up nicely right here.
Except.
I would be less than honest if I gave the impression that
every bad thing that happens has such an obvious glimpse of glory. And I would suggest that if my faith is built
only on the times I can clearly understand what God is doing with my pain, then
it isn’t really faith at all.
Because “faith is confidence in what we hope for and
assurance about what we do not see” (Hebrews 11:1, emphasis added) and
sometimes, sometimes we do not see any good out of the bad. Not at all.
Sometimes a medical condition just simply wrecks its
havoc. Sometimes financial ruin just
ruins. Sometimes a motorcycle accident,
or a stillbirth, or any other ripping away of beloveds never makes any sense at
all. Not that God explains to us at
least. Maybe, maybe God has a
greater good in mind, but He’s not telling us what that is.
And it just needs to be said, if we’re being honest, that
that’s exactly where the deepest faith is forged; in the dark pit of not having
any good end to the story. Not yet
anyways. Not here, not now, not where we
can see it and understand it and write happy-ending blogs about sweaty phones
turning into better things.
Hebrews 11 talks about both.
First half is all the good stuff.
Second half is all the brutal stuff.
And it’s all about faith, both halves.
And in describing the people who did NOT see the good outcomes, the
author says this:
“All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance, admitting that they were foreigners and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own….a better country – a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.” Hebrews 11:13-16m emphasis added
So, yay for my new phone.
And yay for all the amazing ways horrible experiences end up turning out
for good in ways we can see and celebrate.
And let’s be careful, of course and always, to give God thanks for all
of it.
But also yay and kudos to those suffering in ways that seem
pointless, but they keep living faithfully anyways. God is not ashamed to be called your
God. That’s pretty incredible. And so are you.
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With thanks to Bill H. for the gift that provided today's photo, and with the happy anticipation of experimenting more with this new camera!
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